What If’s and Doubts
By: Quenelyn J. Basco
Staring, looking at
the ceiling
Laying down my body
on the bed
Not moving an inch
from every corner of the room
Can’t stop chasing
the fact that the piece of me is gone
Thinking of the what
if’s on my mind
What if I didn’t let
you go? What if you didn’t let go?
Will you stop thinking of me? Or, Are you happy
with somebody else?
Are you happy that I’m
gone?
Confidence flew away
from me, the feeling of insecurities engulfs
You’re pretty,
beautiful, gorgeous &... but you’re not enough!
It’s not enough! Not
enough to fill his ego
His pride and ego has
swallowed him, there’s no hope.
Cold drops fall down
from my cheeks,
I doubt myself and
hurt the me. I made a mistake.
Mistake for not following my doubts upon
choosing you,
Because choosing you
is my greatest regret.
I should have not given
you a chance.
I should have not
given you my all.
Me that once full of
cheerfulness and joy,
Was now taken away
from me.
Are you happy now?
Happy to see someone
broken. Pathetic!
Entering into
relationships with no thoughts of forever
Just a show off!
All I said to myself,
what a fool you’ve been?
You have been blind
by the love and fake promises
Even the moon laughed
at him, the stars made fun of him
‘Cause he can’t even
catch any of them.
Such bluffs to be
made thy oneself,
What a pity? it made
me want to puke
For all you have said
to me are all lies! Nothing is true!!
How can a person say
he loves you yet doesn’t fulfill what he said?
So foolish of thee,
To believe such words
that are trash,
I bet he has eaten a
thousand needles
For such blasphemy
cannot be forgiven.
No more what if’s, no
more doubts
Thoughts came up to
me, I am enlightened
No more rush love. No
wilder thoughts
I saw this thy self
once foolish and now no more!
I have forgiven him
from all he has done.
Thanking the One from
above for setting me free.
For He’s with me and
I in Him
I can rest now with
ease for tomorrow.
